"You're such a great friend," "I can always count on you," and "Thank you for being who you are," are phrases that I am growing to despise because they only come after I have gone well out of my way to help you and you know damn well no one else wanted to help you. Now I don't have a problem helping someone, but its the motherfuckers who literally take advantage of the fact that people are nice. Then on top of constantly using someone, they are completely self-centered. How do you tell somebody what to do with their own stuff? I never understood that shit. Bitch really? Where they do that at? What part of the country do they teach people to be so fucking selfish that you literally don't give a damn about anybody other than yourself? Then you have the nerve to wonder why nobody wants to be bothered with you. Hell I completely understand why they don't fuck with you. People like this are entities that I consider to be "negative droids". These people drain you of your positive energy, sometimes unknowingly, just because of all the baggage they drag around. They're needy, sometimes annoying, self-absorbed, and think brutal honestly is charming. In reality, all of this is a turnoff on many levels of relationships whether platonic or intimate.
Now my bf can be a selfish ass monkey sometimes, but we have it out often. He goes a little too far left with his selfishness, but I check it when it gets to be too much to handle. Maybe some people need someone in their corner to cuss them the fuck out every once in a while to keep them level. I might have to nominate myself as that person in a lot of people's lives. Now here is classic example of utter selfishness with a side order of rude as hell.
My mother, sister, and I were out shopping when my mom made a b-line to a black woman's favorite store other than the shoe store. The Beauty Supply Store!!! Any who, while my mother can irritate the snot out of my taking FOREVER to checkout, there was a line of other waiting their turn to be attended to. Well this loud, extremely inappropriately dressed for her size, Europeaned out woman (she was over 18, hope she was nobody's momma) decided that she was going to make the Asian woman behind the counter make special arrangements for her. "I gotta go! I don't have time to be waiting. I got shit to do and this is taking to long. Check me out now! Hello I said I gotta go now. I got stuff to do!" At that moment my mother looked dead at me because she knew I was getting ready to open my mouth. Now this is what I was thinking (because I have an old school mom who would have knocked me into 2017 for cussing in front of her), "Bitch have you lost your goddamn mind yelling at these people cause your trifling ass want to update your fucking weave? Nobody told your busted rude ass to be running late to wherever the fuck you supposed to be, but you not gonna jump my mother or these other people cause you never learned how to be patient. Try me if you fucking want to. I can show you better than I can tell. Promise you that. Jump, Judy, please I dare you, you scandalous hussy coming up in here wit you ass hanging out like everybody want to see that shit. Have some damn respect for yourself. What the hell is wrong with you!!!" This was a west-side moment brought to you by stupid. Stupid it comes in every shape, size, and ethnicity. Now back from commercial break. She was two good strides from a foot up her ass when my sister pulled me out of the store. I utterly despise selfishness. You not the only motherfucker on the planet. You might be the only one looking out your eyes, but if you're an organ donor that may not be the case. Fuck around with the wrong person and I'm sure that you will get your opportunity. You feel me.
Yes the world has changed. Yes people are colder now that they have ever been, but that doesn't give you the right to be a less that decent human being. Lower class animals respect each other better that we do sometimes yet we have full reign of the world. I know the Creator gave us all the elements that we need to be considerate and empathetic passengers on this voyage we call life. There is no need to run over, mistreat, use, or abuse someone just because the have a good heart or have a harder time saying no than your selfish ass. Take a look in the mirror and decide whether or not you would want someone doing to you what you do to others. Being Needy or Selfish is not a good trait to have unless its for survival. Leave that childish shit in primary school. Do some Self-Inflection and find out why you feel the world must revolve around you. The truth may surprise you and not in a good way.
~The Goddess~