Saturday, March 3, 2012

Every fe/male is not a wo/man.....

It's been 1460 something days since I met you and I am wondering where the times has gone and what we have to show for it. I have done everything I can possibly do and yet it's not enough. I get criticism instead of 'thank you.' I receive 'I need' before 'hello.' I am only your "Squeeze" when you're trying to prove a point. But what is it that you're squeezing because it's not me. I see right through who you are. We can not grow and prosper because you are male. See I have come to understand why everything that has a wing-wang is male, but not every male is a man. The same can be said about females; just take out the wang and insert female and woman where appropriate. See people tell you where they are in life and if you are around long enough you will understand their place in their immediate families. If a male's mother always calls him her baby even though that male is almost 40 years old, you are probably dealing with an adolescent in a man's body. Why do you say? This simply is because he was never release from the umbilical cord. Mom still has the capacity to manipulate her son through a guilt trip. This same man will never be able to have a healthy relationship with the opposite sex because he has never been allowed to mature completely. How often do we as 'Grown Ass' people come into contact with these supposed 'Adults?' Everyday. The sad thing is that some of these people are our parents, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, pastors, teachers, spouses, and significant others. We spend countless hours in our lifetime being taught to be childish, manipulative, and selfish. How selfish can you be to get out of your bed with your partner to go get on the internet to masturbate? How can you get an attitude when you're asked to do 1 favor when you have asked for 100s? How can you claim someone only when it's convenient for you, but swear up and down you love them? These are just prime examples of realities has transpire everyday for some people.

See the problem really isn't them. It's you. You have no insight into who you are. They know they will never be more that what they are right now. They are a wilting flower, but they will continue to drain your life force as long as you remain unconscious to the fact of who you are. They will never know your worth or see you as an asset to their life. They will sabotage everything you do, complain about everything and treat you like shit. Why? Because they can and because you allow them to. Some people in your life are meant to teach you what not to be. But sometimes we love so hard and hold on so tight expecting so much, not knowing that they have reached their full potential. You can not make a FE/MALE be a WO/MAN. They either are or they're not. You will know by their behavior.  We stunt our own development by trying to hold on to these people. I have recently come to this same conclusion in my own life. Love is a very strong emotion and in the right relationship it can be awesome and adventurous. But when love is one-sided, it can become a numbing ache that dampens your whole life. Believe me I once was there.

The thing that we as WO/MEN must remember is that everything in life changes, transitions, metamorphosizes, evolves. Things that remain stagnant or reprobate are dead in spirit, soul, mind, and body.  Life has a beautiful smell and brings vibrance. Death is cold, callous, carries a foul odor.

What are you laying beside?

~Isis

4 comments:

  1. Isis, your description is a depiction of many who has allowed someone of the opposite or same sex destroy and or breakdown, the walls of our emotions. Over and over time continue to go by fast, but the pain of living, or loving someone longer than we should is a bad place to be in. A broken spirit or soul has no face, but the pain, and outcome is the same......This is some real shit

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  2. Truth, and you know what? I wish people could really understand what you are saying. Love does not hurt,it's not supposed to. Whoever made the statement "You hurt the ones you love",was not in love. People are unwilling to commit to themselves, unwilling to be alone. Unwilling to trust that, someone REALLY could love them. So they hold on.Hoping, praying that by some miraculous event this person will love them. But you cannot change anyone and at some point you have to suck it up and say that I am worthy of more than you. I am not an option but your priority. Until they do, these wo/men will remain in the states they are in. They will remain dead. I am very much ALIVE and cannot deal with madness and will remain single rather than adjust to someone for the sake of saying I have someone. And I sleep well. Preach gurl...

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  3. What comes to thoughts.....Is a "Mind Fuck" to the 10th power.....Please keep writing and expressing yourself Isis.

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  4. Isis i know im late on reading this but i love it to the umpteenth power. Its reminds me of some recent conversations i have had. good to see you writing again :)

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